I thought I was over you, I thought I was okay. I really thought it this time. You’re no longer for hours and hours and hours in my mind, I don’t think about you as much as I always did. But I still do. I thought that I could close the door, telling myself every day that it doesn’t matter. Lying to myself every day. Saying that you don’t matter to me. But deep down inside it’s not okay, because it really does matter. You do really matter. I do still love you, I do still want you to like me. I’m protecting myself by saying that it doesn’t matter, so you won’t hurt me, but it’s a lie. I don’t think about you as much as I did, but I still do. I still can’t forget you. I’m just too in love let go.

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